I’ve been thinking, and worrying and thinking and it’s getting a bit much so i’m going to write. I feel like I’m not as happy as I used to be, like I used to be happy 99% of the time but now its more like 85% which is still good but considering the person that I am its a little low.
I spend most of my time alone, because to be honest I have always liked my own company, a book, a good movie, a glass of wine- any combination of these is a perfect evening for me. But lately I’v been feeling lonely a good portion of the time, it started last year, by September I was so terribly homesick that the only thing holding me together was counting down daily. I went home in December and it was the best month out of the whole year. I reached an all time low in January and I slowly got myself out of it. Fast forward to today and all I can think of is my mother coming for my graduation.
I don’t know what has shifted in the space of one year but I know I want my happy back. I’m trying to remember all the things I used to enjoy doing, reading, crafting, cooking, thrifting, taking photos, going to museums, exploring new cities, dancing, art, taking care of my body, developing my brand Natural Saturdays and a new one- this blog- I want to do these things more, and find the happiness that used to resonate from inside of me without any help.
So i’v decided not to travel over spring break, I’m going to do Bikram Yoga for 7 days (hot yoga), Leave the house everyday (please let the weather be nice) Work on Natural Saturdays, and read!! This is the first step… of many, and I shall be writing about them. maybe it will be the “Back to happy” series
Wish me luck 🙂