…And I don’t intend on living my life like I was, I’m about to graduate and as a result I have been doing a lot of reflection. How did I get here? and am I happy with where I am in Life now? I’ve had a lot of doubts in this last month about my academic experience, a part of me feels like I didn’t get what I wanted out of it, all of a sudden I realized I should have been an African history and Women and Gender studies, psychology proved to be too euro-centric for me. But I still enjoyed the hell out of it.
Over the years I had made a strict life plan, the most recent being that I would graduate, enter a PhD in social psychology, do that for about 6 years and then from there head home. But there was so much wrong with this plan, first my longing for my family and home couldn’t be quenched, for every extra day I spent here I felt more homesick than the last. When I didn’t get into the graduate program I wanted to go to, I took it as a blessing, and opportunity to re-route my plan. I’m going home. Because I know now that I forgot to look at the bigger picture, there were many different ways to reach my goals of empowering young girls… many
My anxieties about graduating had left me feeling unaccomplished and I even toyed with the idea of staying an extra year, but I realized that my time here is done and learning doesn’t stop within the walls of a university in fact I think I got exactly what I was supposed to get out of an education, a deep desire to know more and confidence about the little I know, confidence to use that little bit to impact little changes everyday.
I’m closer to most of my dreams than i have ever been before, 2005 was the first time I thought about going to Italy, 2008 was the year I decided to learn Italian and 2011 is the year I am going to Italy. 2009 was the year that I realized I want to dedicate my life to empowering young girls, in 2010 The empowerment project was born. If someone asks me what is your five-year plan? I confidently reply, “I have no idea, but I will be happier and living all of my dreams for sure” I wasn’t born with a rule book.
I’m not just satisfied, I’m overjoyed!