Happy Independence day to all ye Americans! Hope you had fun if you celebrate this holiday! I went to work much earlier then ended up having dinner and watching fireworks with my lovely co-worker and her amazing family and friends. I really enjoy hanging out with adults. It was tons of fun.
So my co-worker has often told me how loving her 5year old twin boys are (they are the last of her five sons!), they smother her in hugs, kisses and “mommy I love you’s” every couple of minutes. When she used to tell me before I met them I would just be like “awwww, they are so sweet can’t wait to meet them”. Today I finally did and I was in awe, not only did they tell her how much they loved her multiple times, they told her she was beautiful, smart and “good”(their words) over and over. You know how children speak straight from the heart? It’s a beautiful thing to watch and I was just so captivated. The boys are really sweet and by the end of the night “Auntie Sabirah” had gotten a few hugs and kisses too!
I could speculate on why the boys are so loving; their mom has a really kind spirit, and open heart and is just a joyous person, or maybe they watch their father smother their mom in the same type of affection(he does), or maybe they haven’t been taught that boys shouldn’t express their feelings… who knows? Could be a combination of all… but that’s not the reason for this post, see when I was with them something stirred in me, I felt like I wanted this, that one day I’d like to have children.
It’s something I’ve always known I wanted, not really sure why, maybe because it is expected of me? I’ve just never really asked myself why. Like I can tell you a million and one reasons of why I want to be in a committed long-term relationship a lot of which don’t sound selfish, but when I think of children not so much. When I hear people talk about why they don’t want children many of their reasons make a lot of sense and I feel like if I were to write an argumentative essay it would be easier to write on why one wouldn’t want kids.
But I want children! For many selfish reasons; So I can give love and receive it, so I can look at my partner and say “see what we made, that’s a part of both of us!”. So I can watch someone grow. I’d love to have my own and definitely adopt as well by God’s grace. I still need to think about and reflect on this. But I’d really love to hear from you…
Do you want children? Why or why not? When did you know and how? Are you sure?
Love and Baby giggles!