I’m feeling down today, since I woke up today I’ve wanted to cry and I already have many times. I moved out from my apartment today and I’m currently at a friend’s place. I guess all the stress from packing and moving and getting ready to go back home finally weighed on me. Also something I was really counting on fell through. I’m trying to see the silver lining but it’s hard.
I think it’s important to acknowledge sadness. I think there is a purpose to every feeling and something that can be learnt (although I’m yet to figure this one out). It’s hard for me cos my normal disposition is pretty happy so when I’m feeling down I recoil into myself and don’t share because, you know, “It’s not me”. But it is me, at least a part of me once in a while. Its OK not to be happy all the time and like I said there’s usually something to be learnt. I’m remaining hopeful that everything will work it’s self out soonest and that I’ll get back to happy me but in the meantime I’ll hold on to the silver lining and just be.
My friend is currently in class so I think I’ll pass the time by watching a documentary or two. I really enjoy documentaries, it’s been a while too. My current fav is “Babies”. If I stumble on a good one I will share.
Also my friend has been sending me photos of our baby girl Tiwa for the past hour. She makes me incredibly happy that baby! <3