Life, Musings

A Push.

February 7, 2015

Happy Saturday!

I woke up this morning feeling a bit out of sorts, I’ve been feeling a bit restless and generally underwhelmed. There’s a lot going on but I really want to be doing more.

Side note: Managing a home is serious work, we have no children but it seems like there’s always so much to do, maybe we need a cleaning lady.

I’ve always been a laid back person, I have a relaxed attitude to a lot of things and it’s great most times- things don’t bother me for long, I’m generally happy most of the time and optimistic. Like everything though, there’s a down side.

I think I lack drive.

I do things because I love them, passion if we want to give it a name, not necessarily because of success. Take for example my job, I teach, research, come up with fun ideas for my students because I love doing it. It makes me happy to see them learn and have fun in school. It makes me happy to see them get better in their work. I’m happy because I feel useful and of course, I can never get too many hugs.

Last week Friday I planned a debate for my students, our unit this term has been on persuasive writing and I thought having a debate between the two classes would be a fun way for them to learn the art of persuasion and also practice their speaking skills. The kids and I had so much fun planning it.

Now a day or two before the debate, my friend at work, Chika asked me to request to be observed (for appraisal purposes). I hadn’t even considered it, but as she explained to me all the benefits I thought yes!!! Now Chika is very driven, she is always setting goals for herself and being around her has helped me to see that ambition can go along with passion.  I said yes.

My line manager came to observe me, so did our director of learning, The Headmaster and the Head of Admin (who the children actually invited themselves lol, cheeky kids). It was kind of crazy, to have all those people come to watch me and then give me glowing reviews felt super good. I got featured in the school newsletter and got a letter for the Head of school. It was awesome.

Back to the topic though, I am really looking to be a “go-getter” this year, go after more things fearlessly and really self motivate. Chika won’t always be there to spur me on and this world waits for nobody. I have so much to offer and I just need to become less shy and relaxed about going after things.

Question for you…

Do you have “drive” ?

What motivates you?

How do you get up and go?

p.s. Chika if you read this, thanks again for the push

p.p.s. Ire, you inspired this post, thanks for asking me to write.

Love always,


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  • Reply An Afrikan Butterfly February 7, 2015 at 4:54 pm

    I’m not laid back at all (a real stress queen) but I also wonder about what drives me. Everything that I pursue passionately, it’s because I love it. Because it comes naturally to me or makes me happy. It appears there’s a thin line between taking the easy road & facing your passion.

    So far, proving a point or doing something as a matter of principle has been my driving force. Just to feel that awesomeness of setting a target for yourself and meeting it. On this career path I’m beginning, I’m “driven” by the knowledge that people think I can’t do this, that they would understand if I did something else, that I’m actually expected to leave along the way, because the profession isn’t kind to women and also because I don’t look like a “fighter”. For now, it’s enough but I really wish that in the future, I find something deeper to latch onto. I must.

    • Reply Sabirah February 11, 2015 at 11:59 am

      I hear you about finding something deeper to latch on to. xxx Thank you for sharing

  • Reply Amina February 7, 2015 at 4:58 pm

    Nice post as usual.

    Lol @ your side note. If you can, get a cleaning lady. I have 2 kids, no help or anything, and I feel like I’m 27 going on 47. There’s always something to be done and endless chores make me unhappy.

    To the topic, I used to be someone without drive. I knew i wanted to tick all the milestones of life but I was never one to push anything. Then I accidentally became a housewife for 3 years. I sat and watched everyone around me achieve things that I knew I was capable of doing too.

    My friends got higher degrees, nice jobs and all that. And I was broke. We can say money and the desire to do well like my friends became my motivation. I pushed myself out of this state by getting a job and saying yes to every project I’m offered at work. If i don’t know it, i head to Google.

    Since starting the job, I’ve found myself dreaming of things I’d like to do, and putting myself out there at work makes me less scared of other pursuits.

    To get up and go, I just think to myself, “if this person can do it so can I”. What’s the worst that can happen?

    • Reply Sabirah February 11, 2015 at 12:03 pm

      Thank you! I got a cleaning lady! And she’s working today, really looking forward to coming home to scrubbed floors 🙂

      Thanks so much for sharing your story, and I’m so glad you got out of “the rut”
      What’s the worst that can happen?
      Love it!

  • Reply sisisingele February 7, 2015 at 8:28 pm

    I think I like to think that I have drive. I can be a slave driver! I can be such a strong force of support and I can push others to do, I’m just too lazy to push myself.

    Well, new me. Hopefully.

    What motivates me?

    When I do have the push…
    – Does it interest me?
    – Will it help others achieve their goal(s)?

    I’m motivated.

    How do I get up and go?
    I haven’t figured this out yet. I’ll be back.

    • Reply Sabirah February 11, 2015 at 12:04 pm

      Just like you, I’m a great supporter! Cheerleader even, but when it comes to myself.. womb

      We’ll figure this out together 🙂

  • Reply LippieLoverr February 11, 2015 at 12:15 am

    What motivates me? This might sound funny but I’m motivated by the nice clothes I own and knowing that I will have more of such things in the future. It gives me the kind of joy that propels me to seize the day.

    • Reply Sabirah February 11, 2015 at 12:21 pm

      hahaha fair enough!

  • Reply Chika March 18, 2015 at 9:47 pm

    Hope it’s not too late to drop a reply. Thanks for the mention, shocked I am that driven though, most times I just go with the motions until I get a light bulb moment.
    Presently getting bored out of my wits, with EVERYTHING. I need a vacation.
    What motivates me? Being able to live a life of comfort. Nice cars. Nice cloths. Nice trips. Vain Yea? But true. So with LippieLoverr on this.
    And also to be able to make a significant impact in someone’s life.
    Did I leave out become a restaurant whore? Try new cuisines with every opportunity I get.

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