I woke up this morning feeling a bit out of sorts, I’ve been feeling a bit restless and generally underwhelmed. There’s a lot going on but I really want to be doing more.
Side note: Managing a home is serious work, we have no children but it seems like there’s always so much to do, maybe we need a cleaning lady.
I’ve always been a laid back person, I have a relaxed attitude to a lot of things and it’s great most times- things don’t bother me for long, I’m generally happy most of the time and optimistic. Like everything though, there’s a down side.
I think I lack drive.
I do things because I love them, passion if we want to give it a name, not necessarily because of success. Take for example my job, I teach, research, come up with fun ideas for my students because I love doing it. It makes me happy to see them learn and have fun in school. It makes me happy to see them get better in their work. I’m happy because I feel useful and of course, I can never get too many hugs.
Last week Friday I planned a debate for my students, our unit this term has been on persuasive writing and I thought having a debate between the two classes would be a fun way for them to learn the art of persuasion and also practice their speaking skills. The kids and I had so much fun planning it.
Now a day or two before the debate, my friend at work, Chika asked me to request to be observed (for appraisal purposes). I hadn’t even considered it, but as she explained to me all the benefits I thought yes!!! Now Chika is very driven, she is always setting goals for herself and being around her has helped me to see that ambition can go along with passion. I said yes.
My line manager came to observe me, so did our director of learning, The Headmaster and the Head of Admin (who the children actually invited themselves lol, cheeky kids). It was kind of crazy, to have all those people come to watch me and then give me glowing reviews felt super good. I got featured in the school newsletter and got a letter for the Head of school. It was awesome.
Back to the topic though, I am really looking to be a “go-getter” this year, go after more things fearlessly and really self motivate. Chika won’t always be there to spur me on and this world waits for nobody. I have so much to offer and I just need to become less shy and relaxed about going after things.
Question for you…
Do you have “drive” ?
What motivates you?
How do you get up and go?
p.s. Chika if you read this, thanks again for the push
p.p.s. Ire, you inspired this post, thanks for asking me to write.