How do I deal?
Over the last year between graduating, going to Italy -> California -> Lagos and now back to California, I feel like I’ve left a string of relationships all over the place. Relationships I can’t seem to properly manage. For example, my college friends who I love so dearly; these people were the ones I cried to when I slaved all week on a paper and still got a B, or when that relationship ended. They were the ones I cooked for every weekend, the ones who stayed with me the thanksgiving I had nowhere to go…
How about my former employers? The ones who gave me an opportunity, and taught me, corrected me and encouraged me, the ones who still agree to be my references? Or cousins, who I have lost touch with but still share about 12% of my DNA. Or friends who may not be so close but I still know I will cry at their weddings and still stay on the phone with them for three hours when they need to cry.
Or my new friends who I’ve know only a short while but it seems like an eternity… The list is endless, these relationships may not be my closest, as close as before or geographically close but all these people mean something to me and are an important part of my existence.
My question is how do you manage? I know at some point in my life I was on top of it, monthly check-in’s for some, bi-weekly check-ins for others and for some just a “hello hope you’re well” once every 6 months and a “happy birthday, God bless you” once every year. But somehow I lost it, and I don’t know how to get it back. I know that saying “20 friends cannot play together for 20 years”, and I understand it. This isn’t a matter of “friendship”. From casual acquaintances to work networks… These are relationships I don’t want to just fizz out, some will I understand, but I want to do my part to make sure some don’t.
And I’m drowning.